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alters, being social, DID, friends, multiple multiples, roommates
Today has been a very social day, not just that my roommate K and I went out for a late lunch with a friend of hers, but also that we met her old roommate, and there was an entire parade of alters out over the course of the day for both of us. It wasn’t a bad day: The new friend is someone I could easily see hanging out with again and I was genuinely smiling a lot of the time. It may have been stupid Youtube videos, but it was with people I felt comfortable with and that is a change from my normal, allowing the entire day to be really pleasurable.
Meeting the previous roommate brought out a side of me that was entirely different though, one that K hadn’t seen before. It isn’t a bad alter by any means, but it is the one that plays as “one of the guys” but still is female. she is the EMT/medical knowledge side that hangs out with guys and has no problem talking about porn or various other sexual things nonchalantly. Her co-conscious twin is the military member who has all the technical and medical equipment repair knowledge. However, I was needing to hit center again because the alter that went to check on K while she gathered her stuff is not the same one talking to the previous roommate. As soon as I was out of there I had to shake off the alter that dealt with the previous roommate and try to get back to some level of me. It took a while though as the fast switching between different people led to a bit more freedom for some of the others to spend some time out and chat with the new friend. I’m not sure if my own switching was exacerbating K’s though…too many worlds colliding and all.
I know that can be hard for me: People from one alter’s domain meeting with people from another alter’s domain ends up creating some internal chaos and letting out ones that aren’t normally allowed out or just simply aren’t dominant enough to be out frequently. I am hoping that I didn’t cause any problems; we’re still just beginning to work out the specifics of having two multiples in a household together.
We went shopping for food the other evening and I had to laugh at us trying to control the internal systems and being zoned out as heck as we went through the grocery store. However, we did make it through the store and didn’t really get anything we weren’t supposed to and got everything we were, so I consider it a success (my littles have been bad about sneaking things into my purchases at times).
Right now I’m just exhausted: This much switching plus being social and already having a long weekend has left me worn out. It doesn’t help that my sleep schedule is screwed up because my son has to have meds every four hours, even throughout the night from post-op instructions to keep his tonsillectomy pain in check. Hopefully we can start dialing back on that in the next few days so I can try to get more continuous sleep (on the rare occasions I can actually do so).